A subtle way of making you forget your darkness behind some clever conversation

College college college college.

Illinois Wesleyan vs. Northwestern - A Linda Analysis:

IWU:

• It's small. Smaller than Neuqua. The good: there are so few people that the school seems to treat all of its students with prime individual care. The bad part is this might feel like High School, Part 2
• It has a small but supposedly quality theatre program. The good: I'll probably be able to capture a similar tech experience and really get involved. The bad part is they have no scene shop, one lackluster theater, and the only way to be involved is to major in theatre.
• Their residence halls, classrooms, and student centers are new and amazing. Except for the freshman dorms. Which suck.
• It's in the middle of some fields and surrounded by an average town
• I'll probably get some money for being Methodist.
• Price tag including room and board: $34,000. Potentially manageable.
  
• Likelihood of ability to attend: optimistic.

NU:

• It's medium sized and prestigious. Medium sized = enough people to more or less always be able to meet new people. Prestigious = a considerably more uncaring attitude, not to mention a bit of arrogance.
• It has a huge and amazing theatre program. Their facilities are incredible and there are plenty of opportunities to get involved whether or not theatre is a major. But it's more likely that the experience and crew won't be as personal.
• The buildings largely aren't new, but they're nice and the dorms are clean and average sized.
• It's in the middle of one of the nicest cities in Illinois, directly north of Chicago, and (consequently) right on the lake.
• There seems to be an endless supply of entertainment and opportunities on and off campus, and a Northwestern degree would make it easier for me to get pretty much any job.
• Price tag including room and board: $42,000. Holy crap.
• Likelihood of ability to attend: dubious.

College college college college.

And now, for something I stole from someone else:

"Why is it that whenever we want something, we usually stop wanting it once we've had it for awhile? We always want more. More and more, it's never enough. No matter what it is: knowledge, sex, power, money, love. It really is never enough.

To the people who say they are satisfied: I don't believe you are. You may be content with what you've got but you'd make changes if you could. Because it's not perfect. Nothing is perfect, and nothing can ever be perfect.

But we strive for perfection. It's in our nature, and hell, also in our nurture, to seek and create what we feel is perfection. Sometimes we think, "Yes, this is it. This is right. This is what I need," but it doesn't last. After a while you start noticing the problems and you start wishing for change. Just a little change here and there and it will be perfect again, or at least perfect enough.

But it doesn't work. Even if you make the changes, it isn't enough. You're still missing something. So you forget what you've got and get something new in hopes of better results. Only it's the same: just not quite right. You start looking at that old thing and thinking how great it was and you want it again. Oh to be back in that wonderful position. But logic says the grass is always greener on the other side. You remind yourself why you abandoned it before but it's not cutting it. You still want it back. You almost need it. You had it before, why not have it again? It was good while it lasted.

So you go and get it. And guess what?

Still not perfect."